Weed...hahaha

So, my favourite band posted a blog called "We Love Weed" about going to Weed, California, so I'm still laughing.
Anyway, nothing is really going on now...at all.
But I still plan on talking to Chris, the other trans in my school that's f2m.
Don't know when that's all going to happen.
Uhm...no one else has been told I don't think. But...WAIT! I told my friend Jimmy. He told me it's going to cost a lot of money. I was like -_- no shit. hehe
And advertising me is nice. :)
Ads are fun. Except on TV. Don't get me started.
Oh, the point of this one was to say that blogs aren't going to be as daily, or weekly...or monthly as I thought because heh...nothing interesting is going on.
Oh, for Halloween I'm cding. wooh! haha.
I just need a black button down shirt...should take me a week or so to find..I hope...or I'm screwed or dying a shirt. lol
Oh, and I have more name ideas for my onsey. It's not that I don't like Ryan, I just like other names as well.
I like Vicktor or Viktor and Darius.
Hm....Darius: maintain well; posses good.
Ryan: little king.
BOW TO ME!
XD
Yours Truly,
Ryan David

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Transsexual Transylvania

(from Sept. 20)

If anyone has seen The Rocky Horror Picture Show, you get the title.
I just watched it. :)
Anyway, last night was my first cd experience! AND IT WAS AMAZING!
I did it at the mall. It was hilarious! So, in school my friend's said they were going to the mall and I was like, "I SHOULD GO AND CD!" So, I did. I asked a bunch of people for boxers at lunch. That was funny. Anyway, I got to the mall and hunted for my friends who ended up being in Hot Topic. Surprise surprise. And when my gay friend Vlady got their, we waited for Toni and then we went on a hunt for a bathroom. We stood in the hallway for it for a few seconds. I was like, "Which one do we go in?" Then Vlady grabbed my wrist and was like, "Come on!" And he pulled me into the big stall in the men's room. So, I did my thing, but stopped and jumped on the tiolette so no one could see my feet and Vlady was like, "OH SHIT" because some old man and his son came in and Toni just stood there like, "Woooow." And we were laughing the entire time. Then the man FINALLY left and I could resume. Then someone else came in and we did the same thing. The third time it was a party of our friends...then Toni. I could have sworn it was someone.. Then I was finished and we walked around...I started having problems and we had to go back to a bathroom to fix them. THEN I was good to go. We walked around and hid from...everyone I knew at school so they wouldn't find out. Then there's this kid KC. I love the kid..but he has a HUGE mouth. So Vlady, Toni and I hid out in KB Toys when KC was outside the store until he left. It was pretty funny. Then I had problems...again. So, we went back to the bathroom to fix that and safety pinned me up. While we were in there, though, this black guy came in and stood at the urinal for...30 seconds...not doing anything. Vlady and I were like...WTF?! GO! And 30 seconds later...he peed. We were like, "Why? Why the hell would you stand there and stare at the wall?" Anyway, I think I passed pretty well because Vlady and I pretended to be a gay couple and we got glares from the homophobes. :) Then, when it was Toni, Vlady and I just walking some HUGE black dude..I mean.. 6 foot something walked by he went, "Hey little man!" to me. I was amazed. And people kept complimenting my aviators...weird. Yeah. So, it was great. Then I had to rush into the bathroom to change back in under ten minutes when my mom came. It was funny because they were closing the huge gates to the Macy's and Vlady and I were sprinting so we wouldn't get locked in. XD
But that's it for my update.
GO WATCH THE ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW IF YOU NEVER HAVE.
Tchao!
C&S

 

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THERE'S MORE

(from Sept. 18)

So, yesterday I told my friend Lauren that I am trans.
Her face went from a "TELL MEE" to a "really?" it was really funny because we were in church. Church depresses me. Idk why, it just does. Like...sitting there with all these people who believe in something that I will never believe in and who are correct. It's depressing...then there's my friends....and they make the world more interesting. Haha.
Anyway, when I told her, she told me that there's another f2m in our school. I think he's a senrior? Or was it junior? I don't remember. I need to ask her so I can contact him. I'm exstatic and have soo many questions! Also, my friend Tessah told me that there's a f2m somewhere in this town for Toni to talk to, it's just she hasn't seen her in a while, so... might be hard to locate..
But, that's it for now..
C&S

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The Entry Whose Name Can't Be Determined

(from Sept 17)
  Hiya!!!  This is (formerly) Eve.  Ryan's and my friend decided that I'm not an 'Eve'.  My legal name is Anthony, so now I'm Antoinette.  I have no choice in the matter.  Haha.  So anyone trying to contact me, I'm to lazy to change my crap.  Just call me Toni now.  Haha.
     Sorry i haven't gotten around to blogging much, I'm loaded down with a lot of homework.  A LOT.  But I'll definitely blog on the weekends and whenever I can.  So...  What's new?  I can't think.  my brain's kinda fried... Well, Ryan already mentioned, we told two more of our friends...  um, i learned a new... skill...  Here's the link to the instructions I used for "tucking": http://wiki.susans.org/index.php/Tucking_and_taping
If you're m2f, you should know what tucking is, and if you don't, check it out.  If you're not m2f, you needn't know the process unless you're perverted.  In other words, Ryan's gonna be having a rollicking good time.  That's about it for now...
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Annoying People

(from Sept. 16)
Okay, so I found this last night and it pissed me off to NO end:
"Well... my mom and i were driving to Wal-Mart, and we saw 2 emo guys walking along the side of the road. I waved to them and they waved back. Then my mom said "You know, it seems to me that emo is just another term for transsexual. Because the emo boys look like girls, so obviously they're trying to be transsexual." It's useless for me to argue with "the mother of all mothers", so please GD, can you give me some suggestions of what I should tell "the mother"?"
I was like WHAT?! Are you kidding me?! Everyone's soooo ignorant it makes me want to set off a nuclear war head on the earth! Ever see The Core? If you have, I want to take bombs like the ones they used in the earth and use them ON the earth and kill the idiots!
I swear!
it's sooo annoying!
And this kid was pissing me and Eve off today, so we yelled at him. I swear. I'm going to end up with some major detent. if this keeps up.
Anyways, I g2g now. Ihav French hw to do and a gf to see.
:)
C&S
(ps. eve = toni)

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To Prove A Point

(from Sept. 15)

No, I'm not going to ask for homework help...such as what some people think. *glares in the direction of Eve*
So, yeah. If you read Eve's blog..that sums it up.
Also, Eve was the first person I told. And so far, no back fires.
Starting this site seemed so....Idk...it felt good, I guess.
And not like that. Pervert. Jeebus..
Anyway, I do not practice a 'normal' religion, so I don't think God will help me find my way. Religious fucks can suck my non-existent cock.
Anyway, I'm going to post some update blogs on life in general.
So, the tally of people that I personally know that know is up to....huit, I think? (That's eight in French) I haven't told my parents and I have no idea how I'm going to do that. That's also part of the support system I want to work out first.
Today, I told two people. They both didn't know what transsexuality was, so I had to clue them in with Eve. But so far...I feel amazing to be out. This blog is going to end up being some weird confessional...I swear.
Well, since I do, in fact, have homework, I'm going to leave you all.
Ciao.
C&S

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-_-...No Comment

(from Sept. 14)
Wow.  Simply wow.  We ALL needed to know that Ryan.  Haha.
I'm Eve.  Ryan SSSOOOO stole my thunder, but oh well.  I like doing different things, from karate to guitar to pissing my teachers off to no ends.  On January 4th, 2007, I came out to my mom.  She didn't take it well- at all-, so I just took back my claims and she was so desperate she believed my lame excuses.  She accepted me, but it almost broke her psychologically.  Anyway, the stress was too much.  I denied and hated myself for what I did to my mother and literally went crazy.  I imagined myself up an alter-ego, which took a year-and-a-half to break.  Ryry and I met a long time ago.  But we never knew the other was trans.  But one day, I asked him "Can I trust you with a secret?" and told him.  Sure enough, he admitted to me HIS transsexuality as well.  In any case, we're planning on coming out (for me the second time, obviously) on the same day for mutual support.  Since we obviously live in the same area, we're hoping to go through the process together, even as far as having the same therapist.
That's about all I have to say for now, I guess.  I'm not sure how often I'll add blogs.  It could be awhile before my next one, depending on hen Ryan and I come out.  Either way, welcome to Transsexuhelp!!!!! If you're lonely or hurt or worried, feel free to use the contact information page to contat Ryan or myself.  He isn'tas femininely entertaining, comforting, or... Anything, really.  Haha.  But he's still good to tal to and has helped me on countless occasions, and vice versa.
^Toni

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Not A Virgin

(from Sept. 14)

I JUST TOOK THE FIRST BLOG VIRGINITY OF THIS WEBSITE.
You will soon get to know that I'm a pervert. :)
Hallo, und I am Ryan David. I am a f2m transsexual and I started this website with my friend Eve who is also a transsexual, but is m2f. Go figure. We both happen to be in the same school. Fate? Who knows. I don't.
Here's some bits about me: I'm a pervert. Wait...already stated. I'm a f2m...already stated. I'm obsessed with AFI, The Cliks, Blaqk Audio, The Cruxshadows, My Chemical Romance, Good Charlotte and Panic! At The Disco. I like to write a lot. I like photography, journalism and cex...jk, but I do like therapy as well. Ihav many different websites that I'm on. Those are on the link sections to the site. Ihav recently found out who I am because of the fact me 'rents tried to keep my inosense. Bah! That didn't work. At. All. So, yeah. I'm being lazy right now and I sort of have to get off the computer...damn father, but yeah. This is the first and sooo not the last blog entry. I'll update...just about daily. :)
C&S

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